Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Back to school anxiety

Well the kids have just gone back to school after the two week winter break, unfortunatly i dont think they had a great holiday this time due to wet weather,a round of the flu the first week and mummy with her head in the toilet the second... Oh well the next holidays will be spring so there should be lots of outdoorsy stuff to do.
Jaiden went back to preschool this morning and the second we pulled into the school he started freaking out about the fire alarms again, i cant remember if i posted this but in the last week of last term they had 3 fire drills (faulty alarm) and Jai has been obsessing about it all holidays, so he suddenly gets "that look" on his face, im sure most of you know it well, the look of fear and you just have to wait and see how they deal with it. So he starts up with a "they arnt having a fire alarm today mum, Miss Clarke turned off the fire alam didnt she? I dont want the fire alarm, are they having the fire alarm today? Miss Clarke doesnt have the fire alarm any more she got ridded of it..." Etc
Luckily since his language has progressed he tends to obsessivly talk about whatever is frightening him rather than just covering his ears and screaming blue murder.
So we walk into the classroom and he grips my hand and freezes, i had to gently coax him to put his drink in the container and his bag on the hook and when we went to wash his hands the tap squealed a little and his hands shot over his ears and he just looked at me wide eyed, that particular tap has always done that and its never bothered him before. Then we went over the the carpet area to do a puzzle and it turns out his teacher has rearranged the furniture during the holidays, this started to get a bit much for him and his lower lip started to tremble, Miss Clarke appeared at that moment and got a tiny half grin out of him, he was still very tense when i left so Miss Clarke sat down to do a puzzle with him.
When i picked him up she said they had had a good chat about fire alarms and how they wernt scary they were there to help us and apparently he changed the subject to "you are going to fix the room up arnt you?, are we are going to move the room back now? etc" and continued that throughout the session. As we walked to the car the fire alarm talk started again though, "I didnt have a fire alarm today, Miss Clarke turned it off, we wont have a fire alarm ANYMORE. I dont want the fire alarm mummy, it wasnt a fire alarm just a BEEP BEEP BEEP!"....
I hope it ends soon, I will have to ask Miss Clarke if she can try and find out in advance if they will be doing anymore tests so we can stay home that day or something, really though, cant they test alarms outside of school hours anyway?

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

ugh

I spoke to soon, morning sickness has set in and rather explosively at that, the kids run around doing "mummy throwing up" impressions and trying to hide this from the family and my boss for the next 5 weeks could become more challenging!
Thats one bad thing about being pregnant with a heightened sense of smell and working in a Pet Shop, its that pungent odor when you first walk in in the morning...

On an unrelated note i have discovered a way to prevent Jai using up all the toothpaste in one day, all i need to do is leave the fan on in the bathroom and he wont go in there! Can't cover your ears and brush your teeth at the same time, heh heh heh, and at least now i wont have to buy shares in colgate.

Jai's been plodding along steadily, he is slightly anxious at the moment and spiders are being talked about again ~sigh~ also he seems to have some sort of policeman obsession for no apparent reason at the moment, he loves them and talks about them all the time and if we see a police car he gets all excited, the part that im curious about is the last few days now, when i have asked him to stop doing something or other and he says "Or the policeman take me away? take me away to jail?" and he starts getting upset, I have no idea where he has gotton this notion from but its beginning to get annoying.

I am going out for a hot chocolate (since the thought of coffee makes me ill) this morning with a friend at a kiddy play place, she has two sons and one more due in about 8 weeks so getting in some fun before her bubba is born.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Feeling Weird

I feel weird. I know i am pregnant i have a few of the usual symptoms, the positive test is a clincher however i dont FEEL pregnant, in the past i have always had that deep "im pregnant" feeling where as this time, nothing. I am also worried, my chance of miscarriage is higher than usual due to my severe folate deficiency prior to pregnancy as is the chance of having a baby with spina bifida. I dont like to think that something could go wrong but over recent years i have become accutely aware of how easy it is to become one of those "other mothers", and frankly it scares me to death. When i rang up the local midwife program and stated my case to try and get accepted (they have very high demand and ideally you have to book in 6 months before you find out your pregnant) it felt strange saying the words out loud, like i was talking about someone else, but they did accept me (yay!).

I think another reason for these thoughts is that after waiting a good 7 months for my neuro appointment which is in August, even though i will still go, i wont be able to have an MRI, so as far as MS goes there will still be no definate answers, maybe i am more comfortable not actually knowing.
I physically am feeling the best i have felt in years, all of my usual bizarre issues have either totally dissapeared or reduced significantly over the last few weeks, i can walk very easily at the moment, i can even climb stairs like a normal person not in the toddler one step at a time fashion i have become accustom to recently, nothing is numb and i do believe i can think more clearly. Odd. perhaps the 4th time round agrees with me, i am normally sick as a dog from conception.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

I think this tells you everything you need to know...

Lilypie Expecting a baby Ticker

Am still in shock really, not exactly planned....
Happy... but slightly shocked...

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Oh come on, not the healthy child!

Well Lachie has always drunk a ridiculous amount of water i blame this on insecurity and his drink is like his teddy bear. After i got questioned intensively at the creache he goes to the other week i decided to take him to the doctor to rule out diabetes, i havnt been worried as he seems perfectly well.
The Doctor agreed with me that he seems fine, height, weight, intelligence, speech - everything actually seems fine, she decided to do some blood tests just to make sure and also commented that sometimes vitamin adn mineral defficiency can cause excess drinking, so off we trotted to the vampires office and with an extremely concerned looking Jaiden watching intently and giving a warning of "Dont hurt my brudda!" they syphoned my youngest without a single tear and we were on our merry way with a few extra stickers and a whinnie the pooh bandaid.
A few days later i got a call from the doc asking to go in and see her, so we went back and were told that his sugar levels are perfect however he does have iron defficiency and his Lymphocytes are way to high for someone who isnt visibly sick. She said it may have been an underlying infection or something so we would repeat the bloods and let me know if i should take him to the Paediatrician or not. So back to the vampire we went, re-syphoned this time with a few tears shed, but more in anger for being restrained than in pain from being spiked. A week came and went and no phone call so i assumed everything must be fine, then yesterday out of the blue the surgery rang saying i must come in and pick up a referal to the Paediatrician as the results havnt changed. So on the 14th we go back to the paed but strangely with out Jaiden this time, I hope that what ever this infection is that it has gone by then as frankly i cant face another series of doctors and appointments! As for the iron deficiency the only plausable thing i can come up with is he takes after me - we eat plenty of red meat and iron filled veggies, yet my iron levels have been steadily dropping for years... On the bright side, Jaidens iron levels are perfect!